Pressure Release

I talked to some family members today, and it was mentioned that there's only going to be one girl in our family. The last time this happened, it was saddening. This time I don't mind as much. Everyone in my family assumes we're too old to have kids, and that we've given up. I no longer try to explain otherwise.

In a way it's a good thing. There's no pressure. No one asks us when we're going to have kids anymore. It's assumed we aren't. It also means I don't have a huge support ring for when we do get pregnant, but it will definitely be a surprise for everyone when things work.

I did a lot of surrogate searching over the weekend. I found a couple that looked like they could be a good fit. I need to take my tests and talk to my Dr. If my tests look good egg quality wise, I will likely go through another round of IVF. (With the blood thinners to prevent clotting, and IVIG to suppress my immunity.) If it doesn't work, I may explore the surrogate option for whatever embryo's I have left. If the tests are bad, I may need to explore the surrogate option earlier.

So I have a plan, let's just hope my relatives are wrong about us being too old.