Restless
I've been feeling restless lately. Maybe it was my recent birthday, or perhaps it's just trying to figure out what I am to do about the fact we may not have kids. I purchased tons of plants (perennials, ferns, and flowering maples) the week before my birthday, and have re-worked almost all of our flower beds, in the hopes that the fall rains will encourage growth and give them a great chance for springtime flowers. So far they are doing OK, although the squirrels are doing their best to dig them up, they haven't eaten the roots like they did on my orange and black Halloween pansies.
As soon as we had the plants in the ground, we headed to Vegas for our friend's 4-year old son's birthday party. It was fun; I was even ok with the kids all over. We didn't gamble at all, since our major gamble this year was the 20k+ we spent on IVF. We drove the convertible, which wasn't too bad considering it's a pretty long drive. It was nice just to get away.
When I got back, I joined another wine club. (A birthday gift to me.) I also ordered over $250 from Vict0ria's Secret. I figure it couldn't hurt and might help improve my restlessness.
Next month we'll probably do the FET. I don't think I'll take any time off from work after the procedure, since every time I do, things don't work anyway. Plus I've used up most of my vacation/sick days on my fertility treatments. We'll see how things go; I'm trying not to get my expectations up, since the poor thing may not even thaw out well! Oh the joys of infertility.
My family knows I have fertility problems, but I haven't given them the details of the treatments etc, as it just puts too much pressure on things, and unless you go through it, you really don't understand the emotions that come into the mix. Plus I can't handle all the questions on wither or not it worked. I figure if it ever does work, I'll tell them. My brother and wife whose 7 months pregnant are coming out to visit next week. I'm hoping that will go ok since I only met his wife one other time a few years ago at their wedding. It's almost ironic the first time they are visiting is when she is pregnant. I think I'll be ok with everything. It will be nice to see them and do the tourist thing. Maybe it will help curb the restlessness I've been feeling.
As soon as we had the plants in the ground, we headed to Vegas for our friend's 4-year old son's birthday party. It was fun; I was even ok with the kids all over. We didn't gamble at all, since our major gamble this year was the 20k+ we spent on IVF. We drove the convertible, which wasn't too bad considering it's a pretty long drive. It was nice just to get away.
When I got back, I joined another wine club. (A birthday gift to me.) I also ordered over $250 from Vict0ria's Secret. I figure it couldn't hurt and might help improve my restlessness.
Next month we'll probably do the FET. I don't think I'll take any time off from work after the procedure, since every time I do, things don't work anyway. Plus I've used up most of my vacation/sick days on my fertility treatments. We'll see how things go; I'm trying not to get my expectations up, since the poor thing may not even thaw out well! Oh the joys of infertility.
My family knows I have fertility problems, but I haven't given them the details of the treatments etc, as it just puts too much pressure on things, and unless you go through it, you really don't understand the emotions that come into the mix. Plus I can't handle all the questions on wither or not it worked. I figure if it ever does work, I'll tell them. My brother and wife whose 7 months pregnant are coming out to visit next week. I'm hoping that will go ok since I only met his wife one other time a few years ago at their wedding. It's almost ironic the first time they are visiting is when she is pregnant. I think I'll be ok with everything. It will be nice to see them and do the tourist thing. Maybe it will help curb the restlessness I've been feeling.
posted by Susan at 9:45 AM
1 Comments:
I totally agree with you about not telling them. I haven't told any of my family we're taking tests. Hoepfully hubby won't say anything either. It was stressful enough without having everyone bug you about it.
Good luck with the clinic. You're too funny about hubby. Men so get off lightly with this stuff.
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